Since last May, my financial status has changed significantly. My children and friends were aware this would be happening and so was I. But nonetheless, I was willing to retire after 30 years and just not make enough money to be able to keep giving and living like I had grown accustomed! I won't say it's been it's easy either. I have had a couple of calls from the BANK like, "You need to get some $$$ down here pretty quick." But all in all these last few months have been like a test run. I repeatedly have to ask myself..........Do I want to spend it or do I want to go back to work? Do I really really need that? HMMMMMMMMM.
Now, that Christmas is here I want the money. I want it bad. I want to start shopping. I want to start buying. But, I have 0 ...zip....denada....money coming in. And, I want to keep giving to my family like I have always done. But, it just ain't gonna happen unless I steal a car and hold up a convenience store and I really don't think that would look right. There has got to be another way.
I know that my grown ones will understand that things are cutting back drastically. I've always said it but now it's true. I made this decision to stay home. But, it's hard to tell the little ones. I went from 2 grandchildren last year to 4 this year. They are the ones that matter. They are what Christmas is about! I just hope that whatever is under the tree that everyone knows that my love for them will never change. Broke or not. That if I could I would give you the moon. So, just be ready for a very laid back and easy Christmas on this end.
I would like to see Rooster and Lulu clean out a box each of "still good" toys and take them down to Blue Santa for some kids who won't get anything. That would be my gift! I would be so proud. There will be plenty in this town who won't even get one present. Even though they write a letter and think, "maybe this year Santa will remember me." . Our family is so lucky to get to be together. We just won't have the millions of gifts that we usually do. But if I have all my babies in my nest I'll be happy enough.
OK...... Rooster, Lulu, Possum, and Tiny Princess, I would love to be able to help this little boy who is hungry and sad. Maybe we need to collect our quarters and dollars and send them to him to help him for part of our Christmas. Wouldn't that make us happy to help someone else have a Merry Christmas? Or that someone had something to eat while we have a fridge full? That would make us happy. I just want us all to be thankful that we have each other and we have so much to be thankful for. We have clothes, food, warm beds, and lots of toys and things that we need but don't even think of as not being normal. But, mostly we get to be together. We get to live in a free country where we can love God and proudly be Christians.