There are several words that I don't think belong in my vocabulary. They don't have anything to do with me. I don't understand the definitions. I can't relate to them. One of the main words is RELAX. For those of you who know me well, you realize that is true. I can sit no longer than 30 minutes tops at church, seminars, waiting rooms, the theatre or in other restricted environments. Then when I am home, I am in constant motion. I am not being productive necessarily but just moving. In the house, out of the house. In the kitchen out of the kitchen. At the computer or away....you get the picture. I so envy people that know how to be settled. To be able to sit and watch an entire TV program without ever getting up. My sister, Jody, knows how to relax. She is the only person I know who can read an entire book in the bathtub. She is totally in another world when she is there. I have tried to relax in the bathtub. I have lit candles had bubbles... the works. The minute my toe hits the water I am wondering what I am going to do next......I can barely get the soap out of my hair and shave my legs before I am reaching for the towel. I literally go at it like this all day. Until my batteries run out sometime around 11. You are probably thinking, "Poor thing, I have always known she needed counseling." But the truth is, this is me. There is no doubt I have inherited some wicked gene from somewhere generations ago that causes me to speed through life. I don't necessarily want to be this way but it is the way I am. I plan to work on this.......maybe I need to do yoga or meditation. Wouldn't that be a hoot? I would have my legs tangled up before I could count to 3. Then during meditation I am certain I would be talking to myself. The only time everyday that I am totally still and relaxed is at night when I pray myself to sleep. I am still then......I have learned to control my mind from wandering too much during this time and fall asleep in total peace. That can't be all bad can it?
Hey, I am open to suggestions if you think you can slow me down. Do not, I repeat DO NOT suggest restraints. I am also claustrophobic. Good luck coming up with something I haven't already thought of..... and please no medication. For once I want to do something normal!